Photo taken near time of accident |
At 4:45
on the afternoon of July 6, 1946
my father stalled the engine of his plane and started a spin move above a crowd
of thousands at Fairfax airport in Kansas
City , Missouri . His was the
next to last performance of the finale of a three day air show. He had successfully made a number of dangerous
aerial dives, loops, and spins very close to the ground. Seconds later, after failing to pull the plane
out of the spin, he crashed into the middle of the field.
My brother, two older sisters, and
mother were watching from a good vantage point with thousands of other
horrified spectators. My mother immediately sprinted across the field to the
crash site. When she got close enough to
see the extent of the damage she screamed and fainted.
Someone grabbed a microphone and
tried to settle the crowd by announcing that the flyer was not seriously
injured. Visual evidence proved
otherwise. The show went on with a final
parachute jump and one lucky spectator in the crowd won a brand new Studebaker. The crowd however was focused on the
emergency vehicles surrounding the wrecked plane.
Someone intercepted my stunned
siblings and prevented them from going onto the field. My mother recovered from the shock and
watched the fire rescue team working rapidly, worried that the plane might
burst into flames. My dad was completely
enmeshed in the crumpled tubular framework of the plane. Both legs were broken and he had internal
injuries. My mother said every
bone was broken. After he was extricated
she climbed into the back of the ambulance, probably against the wishes of the medics. My siblings followed the ambulance to the General
Hospital in Kansas
City in another vehicle. When they arrived at the
hospital my brother Dale shouted “this is the morgue!”
Evidently the ambulance didn’t pull up to the
emergency entrance. The ambulance crew
took my father to the back door of the hospital. Maybe, due to the extensive injuries, they
didn’t expect him to live. My mother
said he died several hours later.
My older siblings were in shock. Judy
lost her memory for most of what followed. My brother might have been the most
impacted for a reason so painful it wasn’t voiced until 1980. He was 47 years old. He and my father had argued prior to the
accident, possibly about Dale’s job of mowing between the runways at the “Heart
of America Airport.” Somehow, in his 13
year old mind, Dale thought the argument might have contributed to the
accident. He kept this pain inside for all those years.
When my mother heard about it she
writes a letter to Dale that begins. “Just recently I’ve become aware of a
burden you have carried for many years – I’m so sorry you didn’t tell me. I’m sure I could have relieved you of it.”
The first part of the letter also
shines light on where mother stood in regards to the “stunt flying.”
“Your daddy Leonard went into
flying against my wishes – when I saw he wanted to so much I made him promise
to follow the rules – well for various reasons he got involved in stunt flying.”
Later in the letter she says “He
used to have nightmares, and when I would wake him and ask what was wrong he
would say he was chasing something he was afraid of, and it would turn around
and get him. So the Lord tried to warn
him. He also prepared me in different
ways.”
Someone has torn the bottom part of
the letter off.
It was Dale, who two years before the
accident, was clipping out articles of plane accidents and sending them to his
dad in Manhattan , asking him to be
careful. With Dale’s fear of heights he
might have been even more apprehensive than my mother about the risks our
father was taking.
Judy and Sherry, my two older
sisters, have fond memories of being in a plane with their dad when he was
doing barrel rolls and figure eights
Dale was less trustful of air travel
in a cotton covered airplane. During his last weeks, before cancer took him,
Dale said he accompanied our dad in a plane that had been repaired by the one
armed mechanic at the “Heart of America Airport.” They were delivering it to its owner in Springfield ,
Missouri . Dale said “the old plane sounded
as if it was going to fly apart.”
I was just days short of three
years old so all of my memories are suspect and some of them entirely
false. I had a false memory that Ruth
and I were at the airport that day. I thought we were being kidnapped. We were hurriedly shoved in the back seat of a
car beside an airport hangar. I can
still smell the new car smell of the leather seats. The lady kidnapper in the
passenger seat was turned towards us and was trying to calm me. I was trying to pull the door handle to
escape.
However real that memory is, Ruth
and I were not at the airport that day.
We were at a neighbor’s house being watched by a teenage girl named
Lilah Linhares. The kidnapping fright was when a distant cousin and his wife
picked us up from our babysitter after the accident. I didn’t know them, thus the panic.
I do have a valid memory of being
in a plane banking above the airport and seeing a jeep below and asking for
one. My dad actually bought me one,
albeit a pedal car jeep.
My mother writes about how destructive I am pedaling it pell
mell through the house.
In a little
binder that turned up with my mother’s memories she writes that she didn’t know
how to tell me about what happened to my father.
“One night Danny started crying and
I asked him what was wrong. “ He said, my daddy don’t love me, he don’t come
home.” I told him as best I could that
his daddy couldn’t come home because he had been hurt real bad and he had gone
to heaven.
The next day
he started thru the house in a very business like way – I asked him where he
was going – He answered, I’m going to get a ladder and go to heaven and get my
daddy.”
Then I
had to try and explain about heaven and that we probably wouldn’t see his daddy
until Zion was built. His answer was – “Let’s build Zion .”
Over the
years I have had conflicting and evolving thoughts about my father. When I was younger I was captivated by the
image of him as a dashing and daring stunt pilot. Somewhere that image evolved into a simmering
anger toward him for leaving my mother with a total of twelve dollars and no
real means of support with five young children.
Now, after reading all their letters I’ve come
to realize that the love between my parents was a classic love story. It didn’t end with the tragedy. My mother didn’t dwell in self pity. She resolved to carry on and raise her
children as if my father was still a partner.
In the
eleven years before she remarried my mother was the sole supporter of five
children. She scrimped and sacrificed, and somehow managed to provide us with
all the necessities of life, plus scouting uniforms and musical
instruments, etc, etc. etc.
Yes, he
went into stunt flying against her wishes, but she was all in as a
partner in his dream of building a flying service, and eventually buying a farm
with the profits. I think every personal
sacrifice she made for her children after the accident was made with him in
mind. Maybe love is blind but it
carried her through the rough times and was never extinguished.
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